Being a pooner is fundamentally humiliating and debasing. You're invisible and when you're seen it's as an infantilized caricature by annoying theyfabs or a rapeable foid by cissoids no matter what, forever. Puberty stunts and ruins your body but people think you can be a heccin based tomboy until 18 and not suffer at all. Shoe size, hand size, size of everything, tumors growing, bones growing and fusing and people still think estrogen doesn't permafuck you to the point they encourage us to let it do so.
If you don't pass you're called a theyfab because the word has lost all meaning, and when you do pass you're suddenly just a cis man and have the complete respect that comes with that in the eyes of the "queer community" which then pushes you out. Binary trans men are glaringly underrepresented. It's always "trans women and transmascs".
I hate theyfabs mainly because they're stupid on how things actually work. You don't have foid-typical features because you were "born female" you have them because you went through female puberty, which somehow they don't understand is harmful. I hate that these stupid people represent how most people see *me*. I hate that in a way being a trans man is seen as 'cringe'. I can't help but see it as such too. Watching these full-on cisfoids say they're boys and guys attracted to them on gay is nasty. I don't want to ever date anyone because I am convinced I'll always be seen as less than, an embarrassment.
Nobody desires a pooner for his masculinity but for the femininity he wants to be rid of. FTM chasers hold a special kind of evil in that most of them want to detrans one and make him miserable as their sole ideal. TERFs and lolcow scum love talking about how dumb and manipulable 'TIF's are, how pathetic they look pretending to be real men, how diminutive they look, how embarrassed and ashamed they should be.
The one thing that has been most tied to my entire experience of transition is humiliation. Foid bodies are humiliating to live in, humiliating to be perceived in, and will forever mar your frame into a pathetic, smaller version of the real thing. The way trans men are seen is inherently degrading. It's ingrained a deep sense of inferiority into me. I will never be as good as a cismoid, I will never be respected the way one can be. I will always have an ugly body and ugly past compared to one. I will always lack.